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Twilight was… AWESOME! haha okay i have to say i wasn’t a HUGE fan of the camera angles, the CLOSE UPS (and by close ups i mean the camera was really really really up close and it seemed like it was all up in the actors faces esp Kris and Rob and like erm lets just say you could see some of kristen’s nasal hairs, well i sure did.), and sometimes the movie was a bit dragging… BUT it stayed VERY TRUE to the books, i wish harry potter would follow their example.

Okay so i know how most girls go into the movie for ‘edward’ (Robert Pattinson), i on the other hand went to watch it for KRisten Stewart HAHA yes yes hmm ni simang ko, anyways she NAILED the part! I loved Bella in the movie. It’s weird because I never really imagined Bella to look like her, coz’ obviously kristen is SUPER pretty and bella was supposed to be.. i dno.. anyways I LOVE the way she STARED at EDWARD, okay scratch that. I LOVED how they stared at EACHOTHER it screamed SEX, and let me just say that they did A LOT of staring.

My favorite part of the movie would have to be the fight sequence. Kristen nailed it. I loved it, the hairs at the back of my neck stood on end when she screamed and that’s saying something because in the books i never really liked that part but they brought it to life, FULL FORCE. Oh oh oh! i almost forgot to mention the bedroom scene! where they first kiss, that was like, the BUILD up towards the kiss took SO LONG it made me want to throw a can of pop at the screen because i kept thinking get it ON already will ya??!?? lol It was SHORT but HOT and the scene afterwards was sweet.

The biology class scene was funny! remember how that’s the first time they ‘officially’ meet and like edward’s eyes are jet black and he looks like he wants to rip bellas head off. Rob nailed it. well in my opinion that is, and it was funny!!! funny yet sad i guess i mean like i felt sooo bad for bella! the way he stared at her would make me want to crawl under a blanket too.

There were times when the movie got kind of dragging, especially the first few parts but it’s only because again, they stayed true to the books. but it pretty much picked up again after the baseball sequence.

The meadow scene was.. meh.. i dno, it didn’t do much for me, when i read the books that was like one of my most FAVORITE parts but in my opinion the movie didn’t really do it much justice.. but lets face it, my imagination is like wild and so its hard to top, it was cool in its own way actually, it was just too.. simple for me..i wish they had done more effects but i also know that they didn’t really have the budget for that so.. it was fine.

The prom scene was.. sweet, i think a lot of people will be disappointed with bellas dress.. i actually thought it looked really nice and the color was cool but seriously? converse sneakerS? although i loved that she was a bit of a ‘tomboy’ and her clothes were actually things i actually wear here lol i guess i have the same fashion sense she does and i love the whole i dont care about anyone else attitude that she had.. no wonder i can relate.. I like how kristen portrayed bella, because when i read the books i saw her as NEEDY but with how kristen portrayed her she made bella a strong character so yeah i’m a fan of hers now. not just kristen but bella as well.

MY biggest disappointment in the movie would have to be their choice on who played jacob, lets face it, im TEAM JACOB. I hope they’re going to replace him for the ‘new moon’ movie.. which by the way is my favorite out of all the books.. because he’s.. SHORT! how are they going to make him TOWER over edward??? make him wear stilts?! Also i imagined jacob as.. well built and he didn’t look so bad actually but i dno, i just pictured him differently.. i guess i just didn’t buy his portrayal of jacob.

Edward. ah.. edward.. people SCREAMED the first time he came out on screen. my erm.. the person next to me kept screaming omg he’s so hot.. or sex and sige rag ka kilig everytime edward said something it was crazy haha I loved that Rob really played the piano.. when he played the song for bella, i’m still trying to figure out which part his song was played in because apparently he has a song in the soudtrack.. i was thinking it might’ve been the one played during the prom scene but i’m not sure..

James was cool! i’m not a huge fan of the actor but he played james character really well!!! Victoria was okay, she didn’t really have much of a part yet, that black dude no comment. Anyways have i mentioned that i don’t like who they picked to play rosalie? coz i dno, the books described her as VERY beautiful but kristen is more beautiful than nikki reed! so.. hmmm anyways i got over it.. she looks good with emmet so maybe that’s why they chose her.. speaking of, emmet was soooo AWESOME! he’s such a fun character! the actor played him well! Alice was dead on too! Jasper.. im not a huge fan of in the books, well i thought his powers were cool and all but other than that no comment, but in the movie he was actually corky! it was cute and funny! Esme.. no comment, she had a really short appearance in the movie, Carlisle no comment, Charlie!!!!! lol the very unlikely character i thought i’d enjoy but really did!!! he was funny!!! he was played well!!!

ahhhh there’s so much more to say! what else?!?!! all in all the movie was a good watch. I would watch it over2!!! it was good! i really recommend it. SCREW the haters

My Day:

Had my driving lessons at around 11. I didn’t do pretty badly. He didn’t ask me to pull over too much and my instructor finally made me drive through traffic which scared the crap out of me. I think he almost had a heart attack with the way i drove because seriously? i keep SPEEDING! Lol it’s not really my fault i can’t coordinate my feet.. and besides everyone else seems to be whizzing by us. gosh those stupid shoulder checks make me soooo dizzy.. i feel like i have whiplash everytime i do them.. i wonder if i’ll pass the exam.. i need to practice some more.. good thing i still have til’ next year.

I walked around a bit. As per my boyfriends advice. He insisted that i ‘enjoy’ my birthday. I can’t really say i did, but it was a nice walk none the less. It was raining so hard that day.. i went to the library, hung out for a bit and looked at some books, couldn’t really find anything that peaked my interest. I wanted to just sit outside at the park but since the benches were so wet i didn’t bother. I went to the mall and bought a slice of pizza, ate by myself, looked around for stuff i might want to buy.. nothing. So i went home and moped. Well not really, I watched Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles (c/o Rachel’s Recommendation) and it’s pretty good. It’s too bad i caught up to it, now I have to wait for new epis.

My Father called, told me he wanted me to ‘hang out’. I was like where are we going? He goes.. Candian Tire (kind of a hardware, tools place.. like.. ACE in ayala and … wats that other tool place in SM? i’ve forgotten) So i was like NO THANKS. He insisted though, but turns out we didn’t go to canadian tire, we went to IKEA (with my mom and aileen, a family friend. IKEA is this.. furniture store, they have a lot of really good selections and like these already set ups of what you’d like your room to look like, or your kitchen, your den and etc.). I looked at a bunch of beds, I was thinking I might get a bunk bed.. you know, in case my friends (those who will come from the phils to visit me here wink wink) come and they need a place to crash… but yeah hmm couldn’t really decide on that one. Father dear didn’t want to get a bunk bed because he thinks i might fall off if i slept on top. See I have this stupid BLADDER problem where i have to keep going to the bathroom everynight.

Mama was adamant on us eating out. I was like seriously? we didn’t even buy a bed and you want to eat out? that would cost just as much as a bed does.. hay.. but i didn’t say anything because lets face it, when she makes up her mind, she makes up her mind. We ate at this weird.. korean barbeque place.. my mom insisted that we eat somewhere new, and she ate here before with her friends apparently and she wanted my dad and I to try ‘cooking our own food’, one of those.. fry thingys, which scared the crap out of me kay nahadlok ko nga mamisik. Seeing as to i didn’t really have a choice, it was that or starve for the night, i agreed. The food was pretty good. Well dapat lang, with how much they charged us for it. It made my stomach drop when i heard how much they paid. If i could barf up the food and get a refund i would.. haha

After dinner we headed home, i found a cake, it was a gift from aileen. I got 3 presents this year. nice. well 4 (excluding the one i got for myself, wahehe)

1. The cake

2. MARTZ got me a card, which he had all my friends sign.. It was a really sweet thing for him to have done. Last year he didn’t get me anything (reason why? hmmm i can’t remember.. something about us fighting i think, and it was my fault, as usual.)

3.Erik got me a present too! It made me laugh because he got me this denmark shirt which is pretty cute.. too bad its a tad bit too big for me.. i guess i’ll have to wash it, that way it’ll shrink. Yes, somehow the washing machine has managed to shrink half the clothes i own and no it’s not because i’ve gotten fat (well yeah i have kind of but not FAT enough to not get into my clothes), i was freaking out because every week/everytime the laundry was done and I putting on my clothes they grew a size smaller and i kept thinking OMG! I’m gaining so much weight! lol I only found out that the machine does that if you dont follow the instructions on the tag, apparently they’re good for something. Karen, a friend i made here, was the one who told me about it. We were looking at clothes and she saw this cute hoodie but it was a size too big for her, she bought it anyway and said that she’ll just use the machine to make it shrink. This made my ears perk up, and that’s when she explained it to me. That’s what you get for not learning how to do laundry in the first place joan. haha Oh and another thing, the drier seems to have lost most of my socks.. i’ve lost like a TON of socks.. it’s a good thing i don’t put my underwear there.. wonder where that’ll end up..
Anyways erik also got me this.. danish card which i had no idea how to translate lol but he translated it for me ra diay, should’ve read the back of the card daan, i was like wat is this jibberish? haha It was nice of him to send me a present. He never seems to forget the important things in my life
4. I got myself something i shouldn’t have.. i’m not talking about the PSP that i bought, that was a erm.. “happy finished nagyud ka sa exams” and “its time to relax” gift for myself haha. I got something relatively in that category.. hahaha gosh joanna was right. When i buy something.. I buy such expensive things.. but i mean.. i only do it once in a blue moon though.. but i don’t know.. the more i think about it, the more i think that she’s right, i guess i’m just as big a spender as she is except that we spend on different things.. I never really see the point in spending so much on a bunch of clothes.. I haven’t updated my clothing at all since i’ve gotten here.. I left some of my favorite shirts back home.. hay.. the only clothes that i’ve bought here would be.. 3 hoodies (green, blue and red all from the same store hahaha) and a black sweatshirt. Everything else my mom’s the one who has gotten for me. I think she knows that if it were up to me i’d wear the same clothes over and over again unless they started to stink haha. Actually, truth is, i do tend to do that even if she’s gotten me new clothes.. one reason why i do that is because its awfully wasteful to have to wash your clothes after just wearing it once and another is that its not my fault she gets me clothes that are a size too big for me! Another one of the reasons WHY i HATE getting clothes, i can never really figure out what size i am! it’s annoying having to go through fittings. Okay, back to what i got.. wahehehe I’ll show a pic of it later and explain how i got it, im going to pick it up tonight
Hmmm that about sums up my birthday i ges.. oh i watched gossip girl haha that’s always a good way to end a monday.

xoxo

P.S. I miss my long hair.. huhuhu

P.S. I miss my long hair.. huhuhu

4. weeeeee I got a wii!!!!! hahahahahahaha yes yes finally made up my mind between an xbox, a ps3 and a wii hahahaha well not really, i’ve made up my mind that i’m getting all 3. But later nana ang ps3 coz i’m buying an HDTV to go with it para nice ako gameplay wahahahaha i love this console!!! it’s sooo much fun!!! i never thought i’d enjoy wii sports! seriously, see i bought it coz of mario, i also love zelda!!! its soooo much fun shooting things! and the wii zapper is cool too!!! aggghhhh hahahahha soooo happy hahahaha no regrets sa purchase. it was a bargain! all thanks to william (bill) it was such a STEAL mannn. weeeee and yeah so i played it and nagpamaol bitaw ko hahahaha i love wii tennis. it’s the BEST. i’m not a fan of the golf coz erm.. dli gyud ko ka igo sa ball haha and the stupid baseball game kay sige rako ka foul so i got bored with that too. wa nalang kwenta akong psp hahahaha oh well.. no nice new games paman gud.. i’m thinking about getting the spiderman game but hmmmm not really ALL that interested in it.. i’ll wait nalang tingali..

I’m gettin a ps3 next year na, wen the final fantasy game comes out. i’m also interested in this game called ‘little big planet’ lingaw ayu si bill hahaha magkatawa nalang ko niya wen he talks about it kay he seems so animated and he defends it coz i called it a girly/kids game. haha

The xbox ill get wen dun dun dun someone gets here. I’m not a fan of xbox games but i’m sure malingaw to siya so yeah that’s why i’m getting it. Also nice mangud ang rock band xbox version wahahaha i might get the guitar and drum set well not sure pa ana. later na coz lets face it d ko ka imagine mag guitar2 ug mag drum2…

Mura man nabuslot ako bulsa sa akong mga gi pang gasto oi, and i still have to pay for my driving lessons lol.. hmmmmm oh welll

October 14th! gahhhh can’t wait.. wahahaha im going to splurge on something i’ve wanted for sooooo long.. well not really wanted but erm i couldn’t decide on whether or not to get it, but yes. I’ve finally decided. I WILL GET IT. I erm.. ‘DESERVE’ to get it. I DESERVE some semblance of ‘fun’ in my life.

October 24th - weeeee the kid in me is going hysterical coz’ i am sooooo going to watch HSM3 on the cinema. screw my 10 bucks lol.

November 21st - we ALL know what happens on that date. Actually i’m pretty sure i’m not the only one who has marked her calendar for that date LOL Twilight baby!

what elseeee???? hmmmmmm can’t think of any other important dates…

do dreams really mean something? i know how there are people who can interpret them.. wats up with my dreams? i constantly keep dreaming about highschool.. lol seriously. And the people in my dreams are almost always the same… why can’t i dream about something interesting? like say… chuck and blair getting hot and heavy lol (well clark and lana are officially kaputz and im soooo over smallville so bleh time for a new obsession: GOSSIP GIRL). or say… i dno.. wat am i into these days besides gossip girl erm… hmmm i dno gahhhh i’ve not been up to anything lately! how pathetic. no wonder i keep thinking about highschool life.. but how come i cant think about how life was in college.. how come i dont dream about college life or my friends or erm.. yeah mmmm well i do sometimes.. but most of the time i keep dreaming about highschool.. i dont remember it being FUN at all in highschool… i think im stressed.. well scratch that. I AM STRESSED. and so i’m regressing.. lol.. gahhh I wish things could go back to the way they were when i was younger… things were so simple back then. no drama. no complications. no responsibilities. no thoughts about MONEY. stupid money. i wish whoever invented it would burn. it really is the route of all… EVIL.

btw. i like chuck and blair lol not DAN and SERENA. they’re BORING and full of DRAMA and.. well lets face it i dont understand their relationship. WHY DID THEY BREAK UP???

Sometimes i’m a glutton for punishment. I think the right term for it is a masochist. seriously. I was bored today. Seeing as to well apparently I’m not working ‘full time’ errr on call/part time ra diay(may rapod kay im freakishly scared about going to my shifts because something might happen…). Anyways so what i did the whole day was stare at my pics in friendster. No i wasn’t staring at pics in the ‘my present’ album because i’m not some kind of narcissit, I was lookin at the ‘my past’ album pics… and it made me remember how much i missed my friends, my boyfriend and well cebu in general.. I miss my fucking room with all the posters. shit. i miss my bed with my favorite bedsheet, comforter and pillow. I miss all my books! especially my HP books.. I want to reread them.. I miss my dog! I didnt even get to play with her/take care of her for very long… I wonder if she’s being cared for.. I miss my CAR… piste kapoy sige lakaw.. but hinuon its exercise and public transpo here is pretty cool.. that is if its not snowing kay bwesit ang snow. Speaking of, I miss the weather in CEBU! yati. bisan summer na diri sige ra uwan and tugnaw gyapon.  Also, i used to love summer in the philippines because that meant time for laag. but here? i hate summer because manggawas tanan tao, and i never really thought there were this many people in this freakin city. Seriously. I guess i would enjoy it if my friends were here.. maybe i’m jealous of seeing all those err.. kids hanging out in the mall with their cliques.. anyways yeah.. hay.. i wish i brought my album! i left it sa pinas. I left the scrapbook my friends made for me before i left too because i thought it would hurt too much if i see it, see how much i left behind.. and i was right. Seeing old pics.. it hurts because i miss what i had. Seeing my friends pics going on laags ang having fun.. i envy them.. they’re still there having fun.. I miss that. I miss having fun. I can’t remember having fun since being here.. I think i’ve forgotten what i find ‘fun’ to do. And no im not wallowing in self pity. I guess it’s just one of those days.. i can’t stop thinking about how i’ve made the wrong choices. Also i wish i could go home and print all my friendster pics hay… its so expensive to have something printed here mangud.. samok. EVERYTHING here is expensive… anyways.. I’m just waiting till october/november before i can do something about it. I’ve talked to my father. He’s okay with me going home, actually both of my parents have ‘given up’ on me. Especially my mom. My dad and i have gotten somewhat close. He comes to my room every now and then and asks how im doing and i tell him how much i hate it here and how much i wish i were dead. Well i wasn’t that blunt, but he got the drift. And he’s been encouraging me to go with what i want. problem is i don’t know what that is really.. and i told him that all i know is i want to go back to school and that i also miss cebu. And he said, uli gud ta if dli gyud ka gnahan diri.. pero if gnahan pd ka mu skwela, skwela lang kay siya ra daw bayad (which i’m never going to go for. I’d rather take out a student loan). So there, They’ve given me the go. I think i’m just going to wait til’ october/november see how my exam goes.. after that.. its either i go home if i fail it or i go back to school.. I can’t wait til’ october.. also, if i do decide to go back to school i have a few months before the semester starts anyway.. I thnk i can probably start by january so i can go back home for a few weeks.. If i pass the exam? well.. i haven’t really thought about it. I’m not going to hold my breath that i’m going to pass it. No i’m not going to flunk it on purpose. D pod ko stupid. I spent a ton of money on being able to take it. I won’t waste it. I’ll do my best. But if i fail i wont beat myself up over it.

oh and im going to do something about this being depressed in the meantime, while waiting for october to come.. and no im not going to commit suicide. suicide would be easier but thats just downright selfish. Although i have thought about it, you know how sometimes thoughts just seem to crawl up in your head? well yeah it happens when i wakt to ride the train, i think about jumping and getting electrocuted.. or maybe while im crossing the street i think about a car running me over… hay.. the thoughts i think because i have nothing better to do eh..? anyways wat i meant was i think im going to start the whole thought stopping bullshit i keep reading about in psych books and also im going to try taking something to help with the so called ‘depression’..

How is it that i’m 21 and done with school and yet I have no idea what it is i really want to do for the rest of my life? I know, i know, what have i been doing for the past effin years.. why did i even take up the damn course if i didn’t even see myself working that field in the first place? the answer to that.. I think i should’ve flunked 1/2 years of highschool so that i would’ve had more time to figure out what I wanted to study.. seriously.. you know how in the states or wherever the age that most of their highschool students graduate would be around say… 18/19? I wish it was like that back in the phils.. back when I was in highschool.. i think graduating at the age of 16/17 is too early and most kids (well maybe its just me) don’t know what they want yet.. Lets see why is it that i took up nursing.. i can’t exactly pinpoint the answer to that.. i think i wanted to take up computer science or say architecture, but daddy dearest said a definite ‘no’ to architecture coz’ according to him ‘wala kay kwarta ana unless you have a name’, and that you’ll forever be just a draftsperson unless you have the means to open up your own company or watever it was he meat. Computer Science was out of the question again because ‘wala daw kwarta’ then my mom goes ahead and ’suggests’ i take up nursing coz’ its where the money is at, my dad agreed. So i guess that’s why i got into it. They always say that I was never ‘forced’ to go into nursing, and i don’t disagree, i never was. But i do disagree with them when they say that I was never forced to stay and finish, because my god as early as first year 2nd semester I wanted OUT. I hated it. but my mom got all mad at me and used reverse psychology saying ‘if you quit now wala kay padulngan sa imong kinabuhi’ so i stayed. I finished. I took the board. So what now? I STILL DONT KNOW ASA PADULONG AKONG KINABUHI. and plus I feel this huge resentment towards them because I feel like everything thats gone wrong in my life is their fault. Because they keep saying ‘they know whats best and that i should listen to them’.. my question is DO THEY REALLY? i mean seriously? How is it that they know what’s best for me if i’m miserable? Now see, i don’t even know what I want, let alone what’s best for me so ummm is it right that i just keep listening to them and letting them run my life? I wish i did know what I want but i don’t.. these days i can’t even say that i know what I don’t want.. I feel like i just don’t care.. or more like I just don’t WANT to care because eventually I will never get to where I want to be, It’ll always be ‘i’ll get to where my parents want me to be’.. what kind of a life is that? is it a good one? Is it possible to HATE your parents? I don’t hate them.. I just don’t want to live with them, i don’t want to hear or see their disappointed faces because I’m not the kind of daughter they deserve.. oh there you have it, its more of self loathing then! haha. Gosh.. I hate myself so much for not having the balls (well i am a girl after all but still) to stand up to them and tell them what I want.. but hahay.. how can i do that man if i don’t know what it is i want? tubagon rakog, wa man ka kahibaw unsay imong gusto sa imong kinabuhi. And they’re right. Crap. Crap. Crap. piste oi. I feel like nursing ruined my life. I wasn’t like this before dammit. Nursing makes me feel incompetent and Stupid. it also depresses me to think about how I fit right in with psych patients.. Good for them though, at least they’re taking meds to control their symptoms.. sometimes I feel like I’m mental. seriously.. its not funny anymore.. when i ride the train and look down i think about jumping, when i cross the street and see a stopped car i imagine it running me over… hay.. i think i’m thinking too much.. but how can i not when i feel like everytime i go to work (and i haven’t been working for very long yet, it hasn’t even been a week) I feel like i’m going to get a heart attack.. (Although that does sound tempting.. pero nice ta if madritsu gyud ug patay.. i don’t want to live life as an invalid..) SHIT. i think i spend more of my free time on thinking up ways on how to die than i do studying. piste oi. fucccck. i need a life. i need to go home. i need to.. i don’t know what i need..

so lets see.. what have i been up to? oh yeah. nothing. i still hate it here. I quit my job at the petshop! finally.. well my manager thinks i still want to come back round christmas time and i still keep getting his emails about store updates… why do you suppose that is? maybe because err i said, i might come back… after my exam.. haha LIAR. if i flunk the stupid CRNE which i have been waiting to take since like forever i’m not staying in this goddamm country. I’m GOING HOME. screw my ‘future’. I’ll rot in the philippines nalang kay i can’t take it here. I mean seriously. All everyone thinks about here is either work, money, or bills. FUCK. I missed out on half of my teenage years i’m not going to miss out on my ‘young adult’ life. Oh yeah, so since quitting the petstore i was unemployed for oh say… 2 months? but now i’m working again. the pay is still awfull, i mean compared to what i’m ’supposed’ to get but it’s alright, a step up from the petstore and thing is, i don’t really do anything. haha. I work as a mental health ‘nurse’ char. in a group home (i think) called blue spruce cottages, see i’m supposed to get paid a nurses salary coz’ i’m doing my interim but err long story short? i didnt care how much i got (seriously, as long as it wasn’t 8 bucks) as long as i get to do fulltime. Coz there’s this rule that we have to do 250 hours plus pass the exam before we can get registered as nurses.. so yeah. anyways stupid. coz i don’t think i’m even going to be using the hours i work in the institution kay naay mga ‘magick2′. supposedly we have to have an RN around while working coz they’re supposed to supervise us, and my employer told me there will be one, but surprise2 dli daw ‘pirmi’ and i have to give meds even if walay RN. hay bahala na. if i kill someone hopefully i wont go to jail and ill just get deported straight away. nganu bitaw nagnursing. piste. anyways who cares right? i just have to keep thinking that wala pa bitaw kapasar sa exam, who knows if makapasar, at least i get to save some money, coz again, if i fail, i’m heading straight home. Honestly though the facility ain’t all that bad.. the pay is horrible but the staff are really really nice.. they’re mostly filipinos as well and one of them is bisaya, she’s like my mentor (shes also the ‘acting’ manager coz apparently they dont have a director of care, i mean wtf? wat kind of facility does not have one??? this part scared me, plus the fact that she said she wouldnt sign my forms coz she doesn’t like that our ‘boss’ is taking advantage of me, giving me such a small salary compared to what i’m supposed to be getting, so i get where she’s coming from and it’s totally fine coz apparently it doesn’t have to be an RN who has to sign the stupid forms anyway.. pwede ra si AMO but i would’ve preferred it that she be the one to sign it though.. but oh well..) Oh yeah, the facility is full of residents (you know when i first heard this from the nursing home i was originally going to work at they said most of their residents have dementia i thought it was a joke and laughed because seriously why would you hire DOCTORS who were crazy?) they mean PATIENTS, so their patients are mostly schizo’s (same as me eh? hehehe) and they’re different from the one’s you encounter at Vicente Sotto… theyre sooooo normal.. some of them actually have jobs! and they’re allowed to go out! it was so weird coz i normally take the skytrain and the 106 bus to get to work but this one time i took another route and another bus and nakasakay bitaw nako akong patient! i was like whoa! and i actually waited for him to pull on the lever to stop the bus kay i didn’t know where the facility was (yes i suck at directions, pakauwaw lang ko) and we actually got there.. turns out he was coming home from work (i work night/pm shifts) it was nice.. also their residents can actually remember my name! they’re like hey joan how’s it going and etc.. its like wow… and they know theyre meds.. which is awesome coz i mean if you forget to give them one they go ‘hey joan i lack something’ and its a reflief eh.. i have to admit i do like the place but it’s depressing to work there because i feel like i actually belong there! hahahaha damn.. also i feel like i’m useless coz they’re self sufficient and naghuwat lang ko makarealize si AMO ana and then she’ll fire me. haha hayyyyy oh yeah, since i work full time hours i haven’t done any studying. fuck. hahay oh well if hagbong, hagbong eh.. bahala na.. i really do miss the phils.. bisan unsaon canada can never be cmpared to there.. the best gyapon didto… hopefully dali ra e release ang results sa exam para mahibaw-an na nako if makauli nako… and i can finally move on with my life… animal ning nursing. pisteyatiatayyawahbwesitbuang… mao ning life.